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Sometimes Life Just Feels Good
I rarely take the time to blog about the mundane things ( to Me ) in My life, but I had a happy, peaceful and BLESSED weekend and I feel like sharing. I didn't do anything that you would classify as "fun" or "exciting" but Friday-Sunday were the best days I've had since Christmas. Being a sufferer of depression I know that EVERY good day is a day to rejoice because I know what its like to have BAD days.
Friday I was really hoping to sleep in late, I had a long week and with My insomnia I had been up and down throughout the night. I finally settled back in for sleep at about 6 a.m. and heard My text message go off at 7:30 a.m. I looked at it and saw a message from My cousin saying she hoped I'd visit her today. I rolled over and went back to bed. At 10:20 a.m. or so she called, and immediately I understood that she needed My company so I told her I was up and would get dressed and come visit. My cousin is My closest blood relative other than My son. The majority of My life we grew up in the house together and witnessed the same things and share experiences; we're very like minded and try to support each other 100%
The picture above, I snapped on My camera phone while sitting with her.
We chilled, smoked and ate. I turned her on to curry chicken, she had never tried it before. I had found a new place to get it from and it was awesome, it was so good in fact that I went back to the same place and got MORE for dinner. We were enjoying ourselves so much that we decided that we should include the 3rd part of our trinity, My younger sister. We called but got no answer and I decided that it was a beautiful day so we should just walk to her house and bang on the door. So we did, until she answered (I'm devilish sometimes) and we visited with My sister and niece for a few hours.
I can't remember the last time I felt so good, sitting in My small circle of family, feeling whole and warm. In awe of My 2 year old niece as always as I watch her grow. She reminds Me of her mother when she was young so much. My cousin felt the weight of her age even tho its only 36, when she realized My baby sister is now 24 years old. After making sure My cousin got back in the house and settled and smoking one more, I headed home. We were both yawning like crazy.
I had planned to come home and eat, smoke and then go to bed but was more tire than I thought I guess. Within 10 minutes I had curled up in a ball at the bottom of the bed and slept 2 hours. I woke up at 12:30 a.m. and ate, smoked and tucked Myself back in bed. Damn I slept good, I woke up at 8:30 a.m. and felt amazing. I mean rejuvenated like I hadn't felt in days. I decided I'd clean My apartment (still undone on monday) and cook dinner.
I had one big task first, to take all the acrylic off of my nails. I had been growing My nails out and they had gotten to the point where i no longer needed tips or fake nails. OMG I know why I pay people to do that shit. it took 3 hours to get the acrylic off and actually PAINT My nails. I painted them money green. They are so long and pretty. I'm so happy, I've never had nails before really. I started watching a movie version of The Diary of Anne Frank and was riveted, stuck to the computer. It was four 45 minute videos with a final 20+ minute video.
I sat at the bottom of My bed and on the floor and watched them all. When done I was physically drained Myself. I literally rolled a smoke and got in bed to play a game of literati or two and relax. I was sleep by 7 p.m. I slept so good that of course I was woke in the middle of the night ( damn insomnia) and ended up oversleeping for church. I woke up yesterday and felt the need to be there though, so I rushed to shower and catch a cab across tow and got in just after the Choirs processional hymn.
My son was ushering, (I sent him and my stepmom along with My ride and told them i'd be there) and was at the door to greet Me as I walked in. The service was just what I needed to round out My week. the choir was great, the sermon was on point and the Holy Ghost was filling My spirit. At almost the close of service My son pointed up to the balcony to point out to me that My adopted family in the church had crept in. i was so excited to see them, i had been trying to catch up with them since Christmas, they havent been coming to our church recently.
I had all the Christmas gifts I had bought for the girls in the Pastors office. I was eager to give them their gifts and had the best time as they opened them. For Me it was like Christmas all over. I so love kids.
I tell you, never has doing NOTHING felt so damn good. I had the most quiet, peaceful weekend filled with nothing but family, close friends and church, God and My church family. Sometimes you realize how unnecessary some things and luxuries are and appreciate and enjoy the simplest things in life. Even more than I share all My excitement, I wanted to share THIS JOY with you too. Oh yea and I got a new piece for you. Just posted on youtube yesterday, it's called "My Blues" I hope you like it.
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